Unbelievable. The specialized SPF unit that i had worked in for the last FOUR years will officially defunct today. The integral task of guarding the airport from threats of hijacks, terrorism and sabotage will be taken over by a private security company, Certis Cisco. Former colleagues were offered multiple opportunities to step forward in their career.
Snippets of information heard from the grapevine, some grabbed the offer to transfer to Immigration Checkpoints Authority of Singapore(ICA). A handful remained in the airport division, being delegated new roles. And then you have the older staff who has made the resolution to retire comfortably with at least $40,000 as a mark of loyalty to service and being extended the golden handshake.
For the record, i am not bitter. It is always good to leave at the peak of one's career. I have done exactly that. I resigned on a good note. Casting indelible impression on supervisors, colleagues, personnels within the division, our commander and the staff from various agencies that i've worked hand in hand with within the airport, i feel i have already contributed the best that i can give. I have immense gratitude for the consistent A gradings for my yearly performance assessment, the multiple awards in recognition of my hard work and the strong affinity fostered among the superiors and colleagues. Bless this.
I am in good hands of the future. My life is on the right track. My studies are doing well. I am in a wonderful relationship. Plus, i am in perfect health. I am thankful that pieces of life's puzzle falls on the correct fit.
The TWO things that would be the icing on the cake are my desire to participate in Singapore Idol 2009 and to snag a good career that pays well. It would be nice to stand up on my own two feet and clear my disorderly finances. I kinda miss going shopping for expensive clothes. A short getaway trip to neighbouring countries would be amazing. It'll come around. If i can get around the notion of shelving jobs that don't correlate with my qualifications.
Superficial thoughts i know but i want a job that mirrors my academic certificates. They say this is no time to be choosy in the downturn but i say i have no interest to job-hop, man. I want that one sole job where i can sustain for as long as my services are required and for as long as i feel the time is right to move on to the next level.
We'll talk more on the idol part soon, yeah.
PS: Buddy Shawal, thanks for the movie treat. I hope i've been of a decent company thus far and glad to be a confidante on your relationship woes. Because i need your ears to share my fair share of love problems too. Good job on being a great friend. ;)
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Guilty as charged. I messed up.
I am struggling to sustain this relationship. I can't get used to arguements that transpired time and again. Beneath my aloofness exterior exposes my vulnerability and ambiguity in facing obstacles in a love. But i am making restitutions in the form of gripping a little harder on the harness, putting in substantial amount of effort, rendering commitment at my best, picking myself up after the hard knocks, showering surmountable love and making good of promises.
I must thank you for pulling me back when i teetered on the edge. I cannot do this myself. I need you to keep this going. I apologise for being the repeat offender in igniting ambivalency. In repetitive basis. These truly trying times is a testament of our formidability in love. I really cannot imagine going seperate ways because the dream settings that we are in is euphoria and beauteous. Make it work for us. I don't want thoughts of 'leaving you' to haunt me. Please.
I Love You.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
The Inverted Pyramid
I promise to make today's post concise. It will be pretty much sedated, thank you. NOT!
I can safely wrap the week on a good note, albeit some impediment challenged my patience and strength. The week has been a whirlwind affair i must add. It was a concoction of the good, the bad, and the ugly of situations and circumstances.
Roll the camera...
I will begin my Diploma in Police Studies in Temasek Polytechnic tomorrow. A part of me rejoices for the fact that i have made it to poly after an arduous educational journey. It will be a THREE year course. When that is completed, i will have an array of qualifications in my arsenal.
'N' & 'O' Levels. Professional Certificate in Marketing & Communications/Diploma in Mass Communications from University of Oklahoma, U.S. Diploma in Police Studies, TP.
But i am not stopping short of amassing credentials. Studying is a lifelong journey. Most people are glad to have completed their school life. But it is otherwise in my case. I will gun for my Advanced Diploma & Bachelor's Degree in Mass Comm. in the near future when i am financially stable. I reckon most of my extra income will be invested in my studies.
People buy hot new shoes, a blazin' jacket, high-end electronic gadgets or spend carelessly when they have money to spare. I am not in that league. I don't hanker for material things. Yes, it will be nice to own that sleek digital camera or extravagant mobile phone..No does it for me. On hindsight, i have lived the luxury life of getting the things i want. But priorities changed as i grew older and wiser. I am devoted to my studies. I am anticipating tomorrow with delight. :)
Later in the evening will be a grandeur affair. It is Star Awards 2009. I am an ardent viewer of this award show. I've been watching it ever since i grew to appreciate and savour local dramas. I mean, come on. Don't we all grow up watching local drama serials, apart from those retrolicious cartoons? This is the thing of childhood. Chinese drama serials are often reflections of life. I corroborate that. The local dramas churned out are truly remarkable. Good script, good acting and good plots...Well, i guess what fascinates me most will be the choice of clothes the artistes wear later and the dramatic wins and shockers. Grits.
Still on a good note, ANTM cycle 12's Natalie, aka The Arrogant Bitch, has been ousted. God is fair. I've been waiting and my prayers are answered. For the uninitiated, she was the resident bitch of Top Model. Aren't we all sucker for intense hatred for bitches in reality shows who looms around for as long that we fanatically watch the shows week after week so that we will see them to their timely death? Survivor Tocantins wrapped my week too. Tyson the son of a bitch got eliminated. Wee.
Final semester for the final Mass Comm. module kicked off yesterday. Couple of freshly-baked hotties spotted, bigger turnout, plenty new faces and genial lecturer whose hilarious choice of clothes(green shirt/green vest/green trousers) tickled me silly...It's too early to foresee potential friends but it's all good. I will graduate in a hasty future. Yesh!
I am thinking of putting forth my vocal skills for Singapore Idol 2009. You think i cut it? Everything is hazy in my mind and intuitions have not send any precise signal. I am not dying to be on TV. I just love singing. Okay, and i want to be a recognised face. What gives?
I promise to get a new job soon and i will align my finances to be moderately stable. Hurdles stumped me. Family and a couple of friends have bailed me out from the financial impairment. I will sail through. Everything that has a start surely will have its endings. Right?
Life - You've not made me weaker. I get my strength from your tests and i am a living proof. I can deal with you whatever comes this way. I am challenged by your battles and to concede defeat is not the way i have built my life thus far to be. I am brave. My ego and my arrogance is my guard. My faith and beliefs are firmly implanted. My strength is stupendous. You are stupid to think you can make and break me. I will knuckle-punch your balls, bitch. Trust a try.
I can safely wrap the week on a good note, albeit some impediment challenged my patience and strength. The week has been a whirlwind affair i must add. It was a concoction of the good, the bad, and the ugly of situations and circumstances.
Roll the camera...
I will begin my Diploma in Police Studies in Temasek Polytechnic tomorrow. A part of me rejoices for the fact that i have made it to poly after an arduous educational journey. It will be a THREE year course. When that is completed, i will have an array of qualifications in my arsenal.
'N' & 'O' Levels. Professional Certificate in Marketing & Communications/Diploma in Mass Communications from University of Oklahoma, U.S. Diploma in Police Studies, TP.
But i am not stopping short of amassing credentials. Studying is a lifelong journey. Most people are glad to have completed their school life. But it is otherwise in my case. I will gun for my Advanced Diploma & Bachelor's Degree in Mass Comm. in the near future when i am financially stable. I reckon most of my extra income will be invested in my studies.
People buy hot new shoes, a blazin' jacket, high-end electronic gadgets or spend carelessly when they have money to spare. I am not in that league. I don't hanker for material things. Yes, it will be nice to own that sleek digital camera or extravagant mobile phone..No does it for me. On hindsight, i have lived the luxury life of getting the things i want. But priorities changed as i grew older and wiser. I am devoted to my studies. I am anticipating tomorrow with delight. :)
Later in the evening will be a grandeur affair. It is Star Awards 2009. I am an ardent viewer of this award show. I've been watching it ever since i grew to appreciate and savour local dramas. I mean, come on. Don't we all grow up watching local drama serials, apart from those retrolicious cartoons? This is the thing of childhood. Chinese drama serials are often reflections of life. I corroborate that. The local dramas churned out are truly remarkable. Good script, good acting and good plots...Well, i guess what fascinates me most will be the choice of clothes the artistes wear later and the dramatic wins and shockers. Grits.
Still on a good note, ANTM cycle 12's Natalie, aka The Arrogant Bitch, has been ousted. God is fair. I've been waiting and my prayers are answered. For the uninitiated, she was the resident bitch of Top Model. Aren't we all sucker for intense hatred for bitches in reality shows who looms around for as long that we fanatically watch the shows week after week so that we will see them to their timely death? Survivor Tocantins wrapped my week too. Tyson the son of a bitch got eliminated. Wee.
Final semester for the final Mass Comm. module kicked off yesterday. Couple of freshly-baked hotties spotted, bigger turnout, plenty new faces and genial lecturer whose hilarious choice of clothes(green shirt/green vest/green trousers) tickled me silly...It's too early to foresee potential friends but it's all good. I will graduate in a hasty future. Yesh!
I am thinking of putting forth my vocal skills for Singapore Idol 2009. You think i cut it? Everything is hazy in my mind and intuitions have not send any precise signal. I am not dying to be on TV. I just love singing. Okay, and i want to be a recognised face. What gives?
I promise to get a new job soon and i will align my finances to be moderately stable. Hurdles stumped me. Family and a couple of friends have bailed me out from the financial impairment. I will sail through. Everything that has a start surely will have its endings. Right?
Life - You've not made me weaker. I get my strength from your tests and i am a living proof. I can deal with you whatever comes this way. I am challenged by your battles and to concede defeat is not the way i have built my life thus far to be. I am brave. My ego and my arrogance is my guard. My faith and beliefs are firmly implanted. My strength is stupendous. You are stupid to think you can make and break me. I will knuckle-punch your balls, bitch. Trust a try.
I LOVE H.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
The Repeat Offender
I have lost count how many times i have uttered the sorry word, verbally, in text and in blogposts. We vowed to put a period to this altercation but somehow the stubborn doubt creeps in and overwhelms the feelings of you and i.
My crime is i have poor time management. I don't know how to divide my time and attention for a loved one, best friends and family. I cannot be selfish and uphold one a level up than the others. They are the most important people in my life. It will be heart-rending should a day come when i have to contemplate dropping one at the behest of another's interest.
I am trying my best to salvage this. It seems the harder we fight for it, the stronger the tidal waves come hittin'. One after another obstacle gets laid on our path. I admit my ego is brimful and it is hard to stave it off. I cannot ingest the fact that i made mistakes. I cannot be receptive of the reality of my guilt. I am oblivious to the pain i have caused in callous measures.
Now i am ready to seek your forgiveness, in all sincerity and in sobered state. And in return i only ask for you to invest the trust and faith in me. I only seek your understanding that i yearn for the company of friends too, without getting embroiled in an allegation fiasco. Again, i have not looked elsewhere because my eyes are busy looking out for you. Best believe that.
Everything you said hits home just now. You were remarkably spot-on about my ego level, my insensitivities and my failure to feel what you feel deep within. For that, i will keep them in check. I hope you don't feel like my domineering nature gets too overbearing. I am ready to face my mistake and i wish you will be responsive to my apologetic post.
Please...
My crime is i have poor time management. I don't know how to divide my time and attention for a loved one, best friends and family. I cannot be selfish and uphold one a level up than the others. They are the most important people in my life. It will be heart-rending should a day come when i have to contemplate dropping one at the behest of another's interest.
I am trying my best to salvage this. It seems the harder we fight for it, the stronger the tidal waves come hittin'. One after another obstacle gets laid on our path. I admit my ego is brimful and it is hard to stave it off. I cannot ingest the fact that i made mistakes. I cannot be receptive of the reality of my guilt. I am oblivious to the pain i have caused in callous measures.
Now i am ready to seek your forgiveness, in all sincerity and in sobered state. And in return i only ask for you to invest the trust and faith in me. I only seek your understanding that i yearn for the company of friends too, without getting embroiled in an allegation fiasco. Again, i have not looked elsewhere because my eyes are busy looking out for you. Best believe that.
Everything you said hits home just now. You were remarkably spot-on about my ego level, my insensitivities and my failure to feel what you feel deep within. For that, i will keep them in check. I hope you don't feel like my domineering nature gets too overbearing. I am ready to face my mistake and i wish you will be responsive to my apologetic post.
Please...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Stories Unfold
''I prayed for the sun after the storm. The sun came. I am glad i noticed the light that represents a ray of hope''... I was entangled in melancholia last night. I broke down yet again after a profuse bitter conversation with H, my adored. I mentioned something about 'leaving and not interfering with your life anymore'. The feeling is terrible. Somehow when you get heated in the spur of the moment, you tend to say things on impulse. I am utterly apologetic that i made H go through this agonizing moment.
I admit it is my inflating ego that warrants anyone to abide to my calling. I've been selfish. It has always been me, myself & i. And the ultimatum yields pain for both parties. I don't want to go through this calamity again. I don't wish to hurt my loved ones anymore. They have been polite and kind enough to tolerate my whims and fancies. I have always wanted things to go my way, at the expense of others. But if it compromises the healthy relationships i have fostered with people, then i know where to point the finger to.
I am sorry, H. Forgive me. There will always be time for you. I have always put you above everything else. The crown will always belong to you. You rule every part of me. I am yours truly. You said this whirlwind period is written with a permanent marker in our fairytale pages. One that you don't think you can erase. I am saying you can. Tear it out and burn the pages then. Only then we can write on a fresh new page. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, H.
To Trishma, yeah it takes a man to cry. I cried in this relationship. That speaks the genuinity of my love, i guess. I am unafraid to shed tears, only if it falls for the right reasons, for the right person.
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Life deals me with cards of whimsical effect. I have undergone so many changes from the beginning of this year. Four months on and i have consistently metamorphosised, attributed to significant life-changing experiences. Slightly imbalanced disposition currently but i will find my footings. Life has given me hardships but it also gave me strength to battle it.
On a cheery note, i have found my new Best Friend Forever. He is Shawal, my man. I see pieces of myself in him i swear. Like a copy of me. You rock, dude! That makes him the latest addition to round up my Top 12 BFFs. Ha... But i reckon he can easily ease his way to be my best buddy because it's uncanny that we have the chemistry and share so many things in common. We complement each other in the outlook department predominantly. Things of ironic similarity - Swagger. Check. Fit & fabulous. Check. Intelligent. Check. Viciously bitchy. Check. Hip-hop/R&B infatuation. Check. Thinks we are blacks and hails from the ghetto. Check. Fluently conversant. Check. Tight T-shirt. Check. Sports Nut. Check.
I agree we need to form our entourage. Smokin' hot dudes need apply. No females. Must NOT speak mandarin. Require to work in crazy shifts. Must know way around Singapore. Must have the guts to venture to solitary places. Must know your Lil' Wayne from Lil' Mo. Must be able to learn at least THREE Keri Hilson songs. Must have the attitude and arrogant bastard look. Must have at least O level. Must live in the East (or else it will be a bitch to send you home if west or north). Must be able to create ripples and elicit whispers each time with the entourage. Shortlisting criteria and closing date - In the thirty seconds you have to create an impression. WTH.
The list of Top 12 BFFs will be revealed in the forthcoming post...Until then, treat me to Fish & Co., buy me a Gaultier bag, don't piss me off, keep saying i am handsome and carry my balls. Maybe i will edit and tweak the list before the reveal. And no, nothing from the Little Nyonya makes the cut. ;)
I admit it is my inflating ego that warrants anyone to abide to my calling. I've been selfish. It has always been me, myself & i. And the ultimatum yields pain for both parties. I don't want to go through this calamity again. I don't wish to hurt my loved ones anymore. They have been polite and kind enough to tolerate my whims and fancies. I have always wanted things to go my way, at the expense of others. But if it compromises the healthy relationships i have fostered with people, then i know where to point the finger to.
I am sorry, H. Forgive me. There will always be time for you. I have always put you above everything else. The crown will always belong to you. You rule every part of me. I am yours truly. You said this whirlwind period is written with a permanent marker in our fairytale pages. One that you don't think you can erase. I am saying you can. Tear it out and burn the pages then. Only then we can write on a fresh new page. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, H.
To Trishma, yeah it takes a man to cry. I cried in this relationship. That speaks the genuinity of my love, i guess. I am unafraid to shed tears, only if it falls for the right reasons, for the right person.
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Life deals me with cards of whimsical effect. I have undergone so many changes from the beginning of this year. Four months on and i have consistently metamorphosised, attributed to significant life-changing experiences. Slightly imbalanced disposition currently but i will find my footings. Life has given me hardships but it also gave me strength to battle it.
On a cheery note, i have found my new Best Friend Forever. He is Shawal, my man. I see pieces of myself in him i swear. Like a copy of me. You rock, dude! That makes him the latest addition to round up my Top 12 BFFs. Ha... But i reckon he can easily ease his way to be my best buddy because it's uncanny that we have the chemistry and share so many things in common. We complement each other in the outlook department predominantly. Things of ironic similarity - Swagger. Check. Fit & fabulous. Check. Intelligent. Check. Viciously bitchy. Check. Hip-hop/R&B infatuation. Check. Thinks we are blacks and hails from the ghetto. Check. Fluently conversant. Check. Tight T-shirt. Check. Sports Nut. Check.
I agree we need to form our entourage. Smokin' hot dudes need apply. No females. Must NOT speak mandarin. Require to work in crazy shifts. Must know way around Singapore. Must have the guts to venture to solitary places. Must know your Lil' Wayne from Lil' Mo. Must be able to learn at least THREE Keri Hilson songs. Must have the attitude and arrogant bastard look. Must have at least O level. Must live in the East (or else it will be a bitch to send you home if west or north). Must be able to create ripples and elicit whispers each time with the entourage. Shortlisting criteria and closing date - In the thirty seconds you have to create an impression. WTH.
The list of Top 12 BFFs will be revealed in the forthcoming post...Until then, treat me to Fish & Co., buy me a Gaultier bag, don't piss me off, keep saying i am handsome and carry my balls. Maybe i will edit and tweak the list before the reveal. And no, nothing from the Little Nyonya makes the cut. ;)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Restoring The Faith
I am sorry for being both sensitive and insensitive. It's because i love you too deeply that i nitpicked every single thing that i figure will and will not do for you. It's an imperfection on my part. But you know i will keep an infinite lookout for you. Being older gives me the responsibility to shelter you from the dark, the rain and the storm. I admit i am protective over your well-being. I hope you don't deduce it as me being a control freak.
I have sacrificed so many things thus far that you may or may not be aware of. I have gone the distance. I have vowed to love you more than i can ever love myself. I look at you lovingly time and again. I cried in my heart whenever i had to leave you as we end the night. I know we have never doubted each other's love. But let me tell you my love for you has evolved into something so fortified that it's inexplainable.
I hated the part when i get those hot flushes. I tried so hard to curb any spillage of discontentment. I just want you to understand that i am vocal about it because i want you to know what and how i feel. It's like a stab to the heart when we parted at just now. I had no qualms of travelling out of my way just to send you to your venue just now. But this happened and i feel rotten. We walked away from the obvious. Please forgive me.
I am fighting my manly tears as i'm writing this. I think long and hard on my hour-long journey home in the bus a while ago and i concede, i started this mess. I want to run to you and give you my sincere and warmest hug, a tender kiss and pour more love into this works. These tears will fall only for you.
I LOVE YOU, H.
I have sacrificed so many things thus far that you may or may not be aware of. I have gone the distance. I have vowed to love you more than i can ever love myself. I look at you lovingly time and again. I cried in my heart whenever i had to leave you as we end the night. I know we have never doubted each other's love. But let me tell you my love for you has evolved into something so fortified that it's inexplainable.
I hated the part when i get those hot flushes. I tried so hard to curb any spillage of discontentment. I just want you to understand that i am vocal about it because i want you to know what and how i feel. It's like a stab to the heart when we parted at just now. I had no qualms of travelling out of my way just to send you to your venue just now. But this happened and i feel rotten. We walked away from the obvious. Please forgive me.
I am fighting my manly tears as i'm writing this. I think long and hard on my hour-long journey home in the bus a while ago and i concede, i started this mess. I want to run to you and give you my sincere and warmest hug, a tender kiss and pour more love into this works. These tears will fall only for you.
I LOVE YOU, H.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Good Things Comes To Those Who Wait
I confess i have been lax in dropping posts in my blog. The irregularity has prompted readers to ask me to update consistently or kill it off for good. Relax, lar. Love has spun me like a cotton candy. That's why i'm in a daze. It seems nothing i do outside of love has much relevance. I have neglected friends who urge me for suppers. I have taken a hiatus from my daily night runs. My focus on my studies has degenerated. And can you believe this, i was busy spending time and making memories with my partner in the wee morning of examination day. TWICE. I'm supposed to be loyal to revisions, i know. Grades may slipped, but love feeds the hunger more you know. It has been worthwhile. Every minute is unwasted. Ehez...
But don't worry about me. I have tackled the examinations paper unabatedly. It requires essay-form of answers and to conjure cock-and-bull story, there is not much information textbooks can furnish you. Common sense and some recollection of lectures suffice. That's the reason why i vaguely studied for HMC and TPSW. Ooo...
Have you been to Tampines 1 yet? Bloody hell. It is overtly crowded, man. I understand that any new mall sprouted in our concrete jungle will allure Singaporeans from all corners of Singapore. But the mall ain't going anywhere, yeah? Oh, what's with the rabid infatuation with Japanese retail store Uniqlo anyway? I have never liked 'heartland' labels. That's because prolific brands will lose its exquisiteness and luxury if it is taken to the heartland. That makes it dirt cheap and affordable for stupid HDB hearlanders to buy the garments. Pretty soon that soon kueh seller auntie from block 498 will parade in her cheapskate Uniqlo T-shirt. And so will Neng Sukerti the maid from Bandung, Auntie Letchumi who lives four floors from you, Mak Senah the keropok peddler from the opposite block, Balwinder Gujarat Singh who works in pest control...
I am really affected by Topshop/Topman residing in Tampines 1 too. I think i gotta burn my clothes bought from them. Son-of-a-bitch.
What's next? Louis Vuitton opening its designer boutique in Bedok Interchange selling $45 'IT' handbags? Yves Saint Laurent branching out to Toa Payoh Central selling haute couture evening gowns? Gucci opening its no frills outlet in Geylang Serai market? UNSEXY.
Oh fcuk it. I am playing the waiting game for now. Waiting for Natalie the fcuking bitch to get eliminated from America's Next Top Model 12. Waiting for Coach, Debbie & Tyson of Survivor Tocantins to get their bloody torches snuffed out. Waiting for the telegenic Asian powerhouse, brother & sister - Tammy & Victor of the Amazing Race to get to the finishing line and win the cool million. Waiting for my Diploma in Mass Comm scroll. Waiting for a new career. Waiting to punch a severely deformed, obese and repulsive classmate whom i'd mentioned previously for ratting and bitching about me...
And finally...i was in the train last saturday. As usual, a train ride to school so long that i can do manicure on my nails, wait for it to dry and repaint it in other colours and repeating the process...I fiddled with my handphone's contact list...and yeay...i actually bother to narrow down who my best friends are, out of 400 plus friends...and i have my TOP 10. Sorry Paris, you have only one BFF. Well, the list is more shocking than the list of actors from The Little Nyonya sweeping most of the nominations for the upcoming Star Awards 2009. Shivers...
Okay, i have talked a little too much. I gotta stuff myself with tea and chocolate waffles...Great posts to come and until then, you wait long-long and many-many okay? ;p
Psst...I LOVE YOU, H.
But don't worry about me. I have tackled the examinations paper unabatedly. It requires essay-form of answers and to conjure cock-and-bull story, there is not much information textbooks can furnish you. Common sense and some recollection of lectures suffice. That's the reason why i vaguely studied for HMC and TPSW. Ooo...
Have you been to Tampines 1 yet? Bloody hell. It is overtly crowded, man. I understand that any new mall sprouted in our concrete jungle will allure Singaporeans from all corners of Singapore. But the mall ain't going anywhere, yeah? Oh, what's with the rabid infatuation with Japanese retail store Uniqlo anyway? I have never liked 'heartland' labels. That's because prolific brands will lose its exquisiteness and luxury if it is taken to the heartland. That makes it dirt cheap and affordable for stupid HDB hearlanders to buy the garments. Pretty soon that soon kueh seller auntie from block 498 will parade in her cheapskate Uniqlo T-shirt. And so will Neng Sukerti the maid from Bandung, Auntie Letchumi who lives four floors from you, Mak Senah the keropok peddler from the opposite block, Balwinder Gujarat Singh who works in pest control...
I am really affected by Topshop/Topman residing in Tampines 1 too. I think i gotta burn my clothes bought from them. Son-of-a-bitch.
What's next? Louis Vuitton opening its designer boutique in Bedok Interchange selling $45 'IT' handbags? Yves Saint Laurent branching out to Toa Payoh Central selling haute couture evening gowns? Gucci opening its no frills outlet in Geylang Serai market? UNSEXY.
Oh fcuk it. I am playing the waiting game for now. Waiting for Natalie the fcuking bitch to get eliminated from America's Next Top Model 12. Waiting for Coach, Debbie & Tyson of Survivor Tocantins to get their bloody torches snuffed out. Waiting for the telegenic Asian powerhouse, brother & sister - Tammy & Victor of the Amazing Race to get to the finishing line and win the cool million. Waiting for my Diploma in Mass Comm scroll. Waiting for a new career. Waiting to punch a severely deformed, obese and repulsive classmate whom i'd mentioned previously for ratting and bitching about me...
And finally...i was in the train last saturday. As usual, a train ride to school so long that i can do manicure on my nails, wait for it to dry and repaint it in other colours and repeating the process...I fiddled with my handphone's contact list...and yeay...i actually bother to narrow down who my best friends are, out of 400 plus friends...and i have my TOP 10. Sorry Paris, you have only one BFF. Well, the list is more shocking than the list of actors from The Little Nyonya sweeping most of the nominations for the upcoming Star Awards 2009. Shivers...
Okay, i have talked a little too much. I gotta stuff myself with tea and chocolate waffles...Great posts to come and until then, you wait long-long and many-many okay? ;p
Psst...I LOVE YOU, H.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
A Modern Fairytale
Written In The Page
I have never stopped gushing about you. I cannot avert my eyes even for a mere minute from you. I will constantly breathe love to you. The look in your eyes puts me at ease. I found perennial ecstasy everytime i get to be next to you. I am willing to trade everything that i own just to be yours truly in the lifelong aspect. I want to look to you for comfort, inspiration and support each time i needed it. Your faith is pure. Your hope is unwavering. Your love beckons.
You elicit a little laugh in me when you make those faces. Every 'I Love Yous' sounds sweeter than the last. Every moment we created is more special than the previous. I will take care of you in impeccable or ailing health. Good or bad times. Highs and lows of life. In rich and in poor.
I would go down on my knees and propose to you without hesitation if i had my way. Because i see myself with you forever. You never fail to amaze me. I may have nothing to my name and i don't care for things material. Your love is my air that i breathe to live my life. We don't need fairy godmothers, step-sisters, evil witches, dwarves and elves in this fairytale. Just prince charming and his paramour.
I have married you. You are my world, H.
For a sidetrack insert, here is an ode to a good friend, Eric;
Goodbyes are never easy to utter,
It's harder when you can't do so,
Will we revisit the lives of each other,
when for now we're letting go?
Thank you for the wisdom,
I learned from the mistakes,
You've left an immense impression,
A lesson i'll forever retain.
Good luck with your academic life. :)
I have never stopped gushing about you. I cannot avert my eyes even for a mere minute from you. I will constantly breathe love to you. The look in your eyes puts me at ease. I found perennial ecstasy everytime i get to be next to you. I am willing to trade everything that i own just to be yours truly in the lifelong aspect. I want to look to you for comfort, inspiration and support each time i needed it. Your faith is pure. Your hope is unwavering. Your love beckons.
You elicit a little laugh in me when you make those faces. Every 'I Love Yous' sounds sweeter than the last. Every moment we created is more special than the previous. I will take care of you in impeccable or ailing health. Good or bad times. Highs and lows of life. In rich and in poor.
I would go down on my knees and propose to you without hesitation if i had my way. Because i see myself with you forever. You never fail to amaze me. I may have nothing to my name and i don't care for things material. Your love is my air that i breathe to live my life. We don't need fairy godmothers, step-sisters, evil witches, dwarves and elves in this fairytale. Just prince charming and his paramour.
I have married you. You are my world, H.
For a sidetrack insert, here is an ode to a good friend, Eric;
Goodbyes are never easy to utter,
It's harder when you can't do so,
Will we revisit the lives of each other,
when for now we're letting go?
Thank you for the wisdom,
I learned from the mistakes,
You've left an immense impression,
A lesson i'll forever retain.
Good luck with your academic life. :)
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Resentment Theory
I HATE THE PART when... Part One
1. People don't say a word of thanks when you press and hold the 'open' lift button for them while they exit (I'm not your fcuking Marina Mandarin hotel lift attendant).
2. People uses LOL, ROFL, LMAO and some other retarded sms language in their blogs, sms or networking sites. It is so immature, uncultured and silly. (I just feel like throwing a chair at your face if you do).
3. People don't return their plates & trays after eating at a fast-food place or food court. (You think you are some Nepalese crown prince that the cleaner's job is to clean up after you?)
4. People parked like an idiot and taking up the next lot's space.
5. Aunties swing their handbags back and forth the ezlink tap machine at the MRT station, thus holding back irate passengers because the card buried in the bag could not find the sensor. (YOU STUPID BITCH! I SWEAR I WOULD'VE JUST KICKED YOU OUT FROM THE BACK!)
6. People do cutesy 'peace' sign in their photoshots. (It's irritating, it's not adorable and you look like a moronic demon).
7. Cab drivers spew casual, life and government-laced conversations during my cab trips. (Shut the hell up. I need my peace & quiet you son-of-a-bitch. Do i look like i want to discuss why casinos are built in our shores or share ERP grouse to you?).
8. People who are engaged with their phone calls and doing transactions at the same time at ATM machine, stalling people at the queue for a substantial amount of time.
9. Friends go out on dates with you but are incessantly busy creating/sending sms to someone.
10. Barbers & hairdressers who trimmed my sideburns despite saying 'DO NOT TOUCH THE SIDEBURNS'.
11. Family members interrupt my 'shitting' time and hurried me to come out just because they want to use the bathroom too. I very much hate to be disturbed.
12. Petrol kiosk attendant remained by your car for you to give tips. (If i give you tips for every THREE days i top-up the petrol, it might as well be the amount of your monthly salary).
13. People have 598 friends in their Facebook or Friendster, when in reality they don't know most of them. Who are you kidding?
14. Cashiers who simply threw down your change over the counter without properly depositing it at the palm of your hands.
15. Cyclists inched out of the lane and causes motorists like myself to deftly swerve the vehicle to avoid hitting them. Whose bright idea was it to allow cyclists to share the roads with motorists? Didn't anyone do a research on the disparity of speed? SACK THE LTA OR TRANSPORT MINISTER IN-CHARGE. IMMEDIATELY.
16. Waiters who promptly clear your plates after your meal. It is damn rude to do that and to even ask if diners are done with their meals. I don't like to be interrupted, be it i have done or have unfinished food on my plate.
17. People who do not leash their dogs or let it sit on chairs of public eateries. YOU FCUKING DOG. I DON'T KNOW WHO IS MORE HUMANE HERE.
18. People do not give up their seats to the elderly or children in tow and amazingly fallen into deep slumber the moment the action calls for it.
19. Surveyors, sales and marketing people stand by the MRT sheltered walkways and aggressively harass victims for their time and attention.
20. Job advertisments require 'must be able to converse with chinese speaking clients/customers'. What the fcuk is this discriminatory pre-requisite?
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You My Rock
I cannot express how much i care for you, look out for you and love you with every beat of my heart. My life is complete. You make moments for me. Every minute i'm with you is so worthwhile. I cannot compare this wonderful feeling in our private moments with any other. Sometimes i wish the night don't take away the time. Your love for me means the world to me. Your arrival during the darkest hour of my life somehow has shed a light. Because of it, i found my way out.
There is no doubt in my mind the love you have furnished me. You breathed love into my life. It's evident in the way you looked in my eyes. And when you consumed the essence of me. With that, i am forever a part of you. One which will saturate in your flesh and blood. My dear, I want to hold on to this for now and for always. You consistently tell me how much you love me. And how much you misses me when we are apart. And even hearing my voice can uplift your day. I thank you. I really am listening despite you constantly confiding in me on your day's going-ons. I want to hear everything you want to tell me. I care to know.
I hope you help me to keep our love afloat. Allow me to reside in your heart and keep me under the tightest of security. I believe you will. Because what we have is real. I truly am at peace when you rest on my chest. I am your diamond. You are my rock.
- I LOVE YOU, H. -
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Poison Fruit
I've faced some turbulent moments in my life. I've sailed choppy seas and i've weathered the storm. I've learned from falling. I believe what does not kill you will make you stronger. This is in reference to a blog post of a classmate, whose naive traits has invited negative energies to permeate her head. She allows a so-called BFF to manipulate her thoughts, the BFF using her as a vessel to deride and backstabbed me. She actually believed this melodrama script that he has penned for her. The kink here is the BFF told her, i asked him to be a team member of a group project. He declined and so i ran him down for the purpose of exacting revenge. FCUK YOU. I've never talked to you, i've never liked you, i've never want you to be in my group and i have no interest to be friends with you. What makes you think you are an asset?
The unfortunate thing is the naive character here chose to buy the story. I am not going to confront you or the BFF. I am not going to hunt you both down either. I won't stoop to your level because i am way up there while you guys are beneath my feet. I am cultured. And when someone tries to hurt you, you just don't try to hurt them back. That's because you will simply be on par with their character. You will be a mirror image of their skanky attitude. I will NEVER care to be your friend again. I mean well on the ride home and everything else. But you just cannot learn to listen to yourself. Good luck girl. He will dispense you the sweets like a candy machine and the repercussion is, you keep paying for your feed. That will be the price you pay. I hope God forgives you both, because i won't.
Eric and Shane has always been my backbone and trusty sidekicks in my group projects and throughout my course of study and i don't see why we would even bother asking YOU to be a part of the outfit. I don't know why you would try to inflict harm on me when i've been nice to everyone so far. It's the most gentleman thing to do. If i don't fancy someone, i will tell it as it is and don't beat around the bush. But if you are infringing on my personal space and go around talking smack about me, then you are just sore that you can't get to be my friend. Get out of my elite and uncaring face.
On a more saccharine sweet dedication;
It's been an elevated and amazing week. I've been spending precious time with my partner. Life cannot negotiate with me a better phase of life, or trade this wonderful endeavours i've embraced so far. I found my life with you and i am confident we will weave thousands more memories. Everyday is more exquisite than the last. I am besotted. You touched me in many more ways than one. I thank you for making me your man, H.
This song is for you - THIS IS LOVE
Can you describe the moment
When two people fall in love
Some say the clouds will spin in circles
And the rain will turn to dust
The poor will start to laugh
Even the rich will start to cry
It can sneak up like a soldier
It can wake you up at night
That's what i feel when I'm standing here with you
It's what my heart has sworn to be true
This is love
It's written on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when I'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find you
I can't wait another day to say
This is love
ohh
this is love yeah
You take my imperfections
And turn them into art
If i could change one thing about you
There would be no place to start
You are safety without numbers
You are dangerously wild
But you're sweeter than rock candy
And you ease my inner child
That's what i feel when i'm standing here with you
That's what my heart has sworn to be true
This is love
It's written on my face
It's the way i lean by body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find youI can't wait another day to say
This is love ohh yeah
No i'm no easy angel
I'm moody like the wind
I am impatient, complicated
I am fragile deep within
But you're no fool
And i'm no little girl
Have we not found there is love in the world?
This is love I said it's written on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find youI can't wait another day to say
This is love oh this is love, love, love this, this is love
I will disclose my partner's identity when the appropriate time comes. I know you dear friends can't wait. I hope when i do, please be proud for me.
LOVE knows no sky. :)
The unfortunate thing is the naive character here chose to buy the story. I am not going to confront you or the BFF. I am not going to hunt you both down either. I won't stoop to your level because i am way up there while you guys are beneath my feet. I am cultured. And when someone tries to hurt you, you just don't try to hurt them back. That's because you will simply be on par with their character. You will be a mirror image of their skanky attitude. I will NEVER care to be your friend again. I mean well on the ride home and everything else. But you just cannot learn to listen to yourself. Good luck girl. He will dispense you the sweets like a candy machine and the repercussion is, you keep paying for your feed. That will be the price you pay. I hope God forgives you both, because i won't.
Eric and Shane has always been my backbone and trusty sidekicks in my group projects and throughout my course of study and i don't see why we would even bother asking YOU to be a part of the outfit. I don't know why you would try to inflict harm on me when i've been nice to everyone so far. It's the most gentleman thing to do. If i don't fancy someone, i will tell it as it is and don't beat around the bush. But if you are infringing on my personal space and go around talking smack about me, then you are just sore that you can't get to be my friend. Get out of my elite and uncaring face.
On a more saccharine sweet dedication;
It's been an elevated and amazing week. I've been spending precious time with my partner. Life cannot negotiate with me a better phase of life, or trade this wonderful endeavours i've embraced so far. I found my life with you and i am confident we will weave thousands more memories. Everyday is more exquisite than the last. I am besotted. You touched me in many more ways than one. I thank you for making me your man, H.
This song is for you - THIS IS LOVE
Can you describe the moment
When two people fall in love
Some say the clouds will spin in circles
And the rain will turn to dust
The poor will start to laugh
Even the rich will start to cry
It can sneak up like a soldier
It can wake you up at night
That's what i feel when I'm standing here with you
It's what my heart has sworn to be true
This is love
It's written on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when I'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find you
I can't wait another day to say
This is love
ohh
this is love yeah
You take my imperfections
And turn them into art
If i could change one thing about you
There would be no place to start
You are safety without numbers
You are dangerously wild
But you're sweeter than rock candy
And you ease my inner child
That's what i feel when i'm standing here with you
That's what my heart has sworn to be true
This is love
It's written on my face
It's the way i lean by body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find youI can't wait another day to say
This is love ohh yeah
No i'm no easy angel
I'm moody like the wind
I am impatient, complicated
I am fragile deep within
But you're no fool
And i'm no little girl
Have we not found there is love in the world?
This is love I said it's written on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find youI can't wait another day to say
This is love oh this is love, love, love this, this is love
I will disclose my partner's identity when the appropriate time comes. I know you dear friends can't wait. I hope when i do, please be proud for me.
LOVE knows no sky. :)
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